Discouraged...

Tim has become a shepherd...
XiuZhen has become a shepherd...

I've been praying and in church for so long...
I so seek for breakthrough...

Where am i going?

I'm so sick and tired...

None of my contacts sees my heart for them...

Sigh...

Superstars...

Yesterday were the results for the revival superstar...

He's out...


She's out...


Well... I'm proud of you guys.. You guys really displayed your best and very strong...
Displayed a very good image of the Singaporean youth... For those who dun know, I was also involved in such kinda talent show in TCS years back... Also similarly voting system... "1900 112 0003" That was my number... And it hurts to know you've done ya best and to be determined by phone calls to get to the next stage... Dun be sad guys, you guys are already Superstars!!! ^_^

Congrats to these 2 stars too... Work harder for the finals...

Got such thing as 'Surprise Baptism Day' meh? LoLx

Controlling ya anger, Judging others, Giving thanks before we partake our food...

All 3 lessons in one day... Haha

Today, my abba 'Daddy' gave Veronica & me a very interesting class...

Let me make things short...
What happened was this:

"Veronica approached me last night on the MSN... She had a classmate from CHC, and she questioned Veronica this... 'Why do u not close your eyes when you say grace?' and I told V. that 'Saying grace isn't instructed by Jesus nor did Jesus commanded us to say grace. Saying grace was initiated by followers as a sign of gratefulness. Saying Grace was modeled after Jesus broke bread and gave thanks to His Father, no right no wrong. Saying grace need not close eyes. When we shoose to say grace, we do not want to make it a ritual as ours is a relationship with Jesus, not religion. There's no fixed way of talking to God. It's your choice, the heart counts.' Veronica agreed and said she had told her so... But her CHC fren insisted that it was wrong, that Veronica was ashamed to close her eyes, and she commented that Jesus had died in vain on the cross for her... 'Your church tell you that, is it?' Now this... THIS statement made me and Veronica very mad. But surprisingly, I told Veronica... 'Do not lose ya temper, because J.C. told us so...'
And I said her friend was judging us...[Matthew 7:1] and told Veronica to calm things with her... As fellow Brothers & Sisters, we shouldn't judge each other and should encourage each other more... Veronica told me she wouldn't knew how to confront her classmate for today since the conversation was so intensed... But I told her, regardless whatever happens today... Never lose ya temper and be forgiving... Man, I referred to the bible so many times for verses to encourage her... and myself too... hahah.. I wanted to let things go... let her classmate win this debate... but I just wanted to proof to her classmate the Truth of His words... else she'll still be lost forever...
There was an sms war that took place today... I kept quoting verses, trying my best not to lose my temper and to seek my Holy Father for His wisdom and strength... In the end, the classmate gave up messaging...but she didn't see the point... and Veronica said... their friendship was no longer as good as before... sigh..."

What a day, Father...

Growing out of problems...

~ Psalm 4 ~

Lately...
I feel kinda matured... or shld i say I'd learned lessons frm my 'Abba Father'..

I noticed alot of my fellow brothers and sisters are going thru financial problems. But some are actually self-caused... and can be avoided...

For example,

There are brothers who just borrow money from us, constantly, but never make an effort to return... It's not like they are going thru some broken family or financial downturn... but... more of taking us for granted

There are also brothers who wants to satisfy their wants but never took note of the consequences... For example, handling Handphone bills...

I was initially very pissed off, with this 'money matter'...
Before I was a christian, I hated frens who dared to take granted of me... And I will give them a lashing they'll never forget

My idea/philospohy is:
If u can't afford to buy the thing, wait till u do...
Dun borrow from others... But if you do, remember to return.
Don't take people for granted.

I noticed a lot of teenagers nowadays are 'handphone-crazy'...
Because the society makes obtaining a handphone so easy... Pple just have to get an NRIC, get a free phone, and indulge on the fun of communications & entertainment...
But when the bill comes.... they freak out... Unable to handle... or they couldn't be bothered... But the society here is not a charitable organisation...

- 'No money no talk' -> 'No money go jail' -

Proverbs 23:4-5; James 2:5; Proverbs 13:7; Hebrews 13:5

But these few weeks, those brothers made me learn how to control my anger...
How to handle this thing in a very matured way.

God blesses us to give... to share with our frens, family... to bless others...
But we are not to be taken for granted, only kids take things for granted...

If you are taken for granted by someone, have an open communication with him/her... Let him/her mature in this factor... in this way, our bond of friendship becomes stronger and you have helped him/her mature from this concern.

Second, I'd learned forgiving...
We are all sinners...
At times, do not let one wrongdoing of someone affect the long built-up foundation relationship... Be grateful for all the great things he/she's done for u, and dun let one wrongdoing spoill everything...
*Especially when you are angry with your family members...
(I heard from some fren that how you treat your own father, is the same as how you'll treat your Abba Father)

- Forgive, ok? ^_^ -

Mark 11:25, Luke 6:38

Try this site...
He chose the nails

BREAKTHROUGH!!!

Today was a pack day... v.confused... dunno where to go...

Donnie & guys were going to TianYi's house @ 11am Boon Keng -> StarHub
Jeremiah & Timothy meeting @ 12nn Beach Rd -> Starhub

In the end... I went to....
11am(TTSH) -> 1130PM (TPY Clinic) -> 1230 (STARHUB)

I have been sick since Wednesday... But I haven't had the time to see the doctor. And just when I went to Tan Tock Seng Hospital for the Walk-In clinic, it's closed for renovations... =S
So I had to rush to some General Practioner Clinic @ Toa Payoh... After that, I went down to Starhub to meet ZhongHuan for lunch.

'Donnie & guys' came v.shortly after... and we headed quickly to Nexus for the 'Breakthorugh' service by Pastor Ben & Pastor Dinah.

*Breakthrough is a faith campaign
*It last for 21 months... (Aug 2005 - Aug 2007)
Purpose:
1. Raise faith of people in the congregation
2. Eliminate capital debt
3. Resource new ministry and mission causes

- To reach 2800 attendance
- Establish 5 global teams
- Clear Debt Retirement

*For us... It's a career breakthrough? An emotional breakthrough? A physical breakthrough or a spiritual breakthrough? All this to the power of the faith we have.

Oh... We celebrated Moses' birthday too!!! Happy Be-early Birthday MOSES!!!

Very tired & sick today... I go rest liao...

*God, I'm longing/hungry for more breakthroughs in my life...
Bless me and bless my brothers & sisters as we do more of your work for you, Lord.
Amen.

Blessed Saturday...

Today was our evangelistic service...
So we joined the high school service at 3pm...
Early... haha... Since we changed to 5pm... I think we are kinda used to that time

Thank God Reuben & Zephen came today...
Wilson told me he had to work... So he couldn't come...

'Shirley' sang a song (dunno what title) for the drama... So cool
Paster Jeff's sermon - Crossroads[again... LoL]

After service, we reached Starhub's food court @ abt 5 plus, kinda weird... still early, haha, but it was a great time to fellowship, chatted with a few visitors at cuppage too.
They were Jeyeraj & Veron's contacts...
We'd filled/submitted our discipleship seminar form too.

There was one time where 'chong yang' still held on to his buddhist past.
So Donnie, Zhonghuan, Moses, Jeremiah were sitting around him... sharing with him the gospel... Very serious atmosphere... and they talked for quite long...

After 9, the leaders had CLM meeting... So we went off walking away...
The guys couldn't decide... So we just walked on to HMV and to Paragon...

Then... walking past Swensons @ Crown Prince Hotel gave me an idea...
But it was packed...
So... I suggested we head to Marche and I treated them all ice-cream...
Hehe... There were Kelvin, Stephen, Jiashen, Richard, Veron, Zhonghuan, Timothy, Michael, Cedric, Xueqi, Veronica, Ricky, TingFeng, Joseph, Moses...

Hope they all enjoyed it... =P

"Most scariest ghost award.."

Haha... Had great fun during the "Valley of Death"...
Thank God for his blessings...

Must approach James for our ghost performance shots...

Here are some of the photos i took during prize presentation...
(taken using my Nokia phone... Bad quality =P)



Did u miss the fun?

Haha.... Sorry ah... Yoke Ling & Joseph... Must have gave u guys a big fright... =P

Prayer List

I've been praying 4...

1. Boez's PSLE
2. Ricky's PSLE
3. Richard's coping in his new environment (NYP)
4. Reuben's Spiritual Health
5. Jeremiah's burden
6. My family's spiritual/physical health
7. My spiritual growth/maturity
8. Pray for my NS colleague Jiabin who wants to evangelise in Japan. (Campus Crusade)

To be added... LoL
*Pray for me too...

Wristband...

This morning, my camp had life run...

And I noticed something interested...
The new recruits from 6SIR were also doing their ET run after us...
And surprisingly, the Army is quite fashionable and funky also...



This is what they wore on their wrists...
It's to warn the in-charge that they have asthma, heat-stroke or blah blah blah...

In the past, we had some some colour tape on our shoulder ampulet..

Hmm... Cool

NKF bluff money ah!!!!

Read from the papers, watched the news and heard the radio...


News Article 1, News Article 2

The Straits Times reports that the CEO (Big Boss) of NKF earns $25,000 per month. 'That makes his annual salary between $550,000 and $600,000, or $1.8 million in total over the past three years.'

His office toilet tap is made of gold!!!

And he flies around in first class seats...

'The court also heard the NKF had a fleet of eight cars and drivers, which Mr Durai and its visiting guests and VIPs could use.

NKF also paid for the road tax, repair and maintenance for Mr Durai's personal Mercedes Benz.

On NKF's reserves, the court was told it stood at $262 million as of July 2005.

Mr Singh argued that if the NKF stopped all fundraising activities and concentrated on treating kidney patients, it would still have enough money to see through its operations for 30 years, based on its expenses scheduled for 2003.

For that year, the NKF received $24.4 million for patient fees for dialysis but spent some $31 million for these operations.

So even if it was out of pocket of $7 million to $8 million per year, NKF's current reserves were sufficient for at least 30 years.'

Haha... Lately, I've been learning so much about 'giving'...
but all these... Sigh...

A tip for those who needs to make a lot of outgoing calls on ya cellphone...

Extracted from Digital Life (Straits Times - 12 July 2005)



'Cellphones users who enjoy free incoming calls can now also make cheap outgoing calls. which cost as little as three cents a minute, with the arrival of mobile callback services.

Targeted at cost-conscious users such as retirees, housewives and young people, the service cost less than the usual rate of 10 or 20 cents a minute charged by mobile operators.

This is possible because callback service providers make use of cheap land-based telephone lines to connect two cellphone users."

[When you want to call a friend, you send an sms or dial a special number, and wait for the callback operator to call both of you back. The drawback is you have to wait longer - about seven seconds - for a call to be connected. You will also have to live with the added hassle of keying in special numbers instead od dialling direct from your phone's contact list.]

Sunpage - 5.9 cents per min [Call 6488-3333]
Global Smart Call-Back - 5.9 cents per min [www.globalroam.com]
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e-Raffles Mobile Saver - 5.2 cents per min pCall 6748-7082]

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400 more days to ORD!!!

HOORAY!!!

For those who aren't army personels...
ORD means Operational Ready Date...
For me to leave the army...

Haha...

MeiHwa's Belated Birthday Celebrations...

We celebrated for MeiHwa last night...

We sang so many versions of the birthday song @ the Starhub food court... English, Chinese, Malay, Tamil & Japanese... Making MeiHwa so paiseh...

Then the girls... (HuiXian & Shelby kissed her on the cheeks, leaving lipstick marks on her face)

Haha...

Then I affirmed her... followed by Richard, Veron, ZhongHuan, Joseph...
(I said that I was her great-grand sheep... but after going back to calculate... I'm just her grand sheep only la =P... Must get her a great-grand sheep as a birthday gift)

Then, we sang "I love you MeiHwa"... So embarrasing 4 her...

All the diners were just looking @ our big group...

But she was really blessed...

Happy belated birthday, Grandma Shepherd!!! Hehe

$$$$$ - Blessed to bless?

Proverbs 11:24-25
"One man gives freely, yet gains even more; another withholds unduly, but comes to poverty. A generous man will prosper; he who refreshes others will himself be refreshed."

Today's sermon topic by Jasmine...

Let me summorise...
1) By being generous, a person prosper(v24)
* There is limited resources to go around. So we'd better get and give.
* God is the source
* God is a generous God. (He meets our needs not our greeds)
2 Cor 9:6 , Luke 9:24 , 2 Cor 9:10-11 , Matthew 25:21, Deuteronomy 28:12-14

2) Whatever we do for others returns to us abduntly(v25)
1st benefit: We experience true friendship
2nd benefit: Spiritual multiplication
3rd benefit: We demonstrated that the God we worship is real
Genesis 12:2 , Luke 6:38 , James 2:14-17

This is very true... but what if the story was reversed?
Let me share with you a story...

One day, my 'brother'(not real brother. Eg.Richard) suddenly couldn't pay his handphone bills... Neither did his parents wanna help him, so he approached me.
Not to borrow money... But to borrow my NRIC to apply for a new line. He also borrowed a bit of money to get a new phone. Of course, this is a quite a big matter... NRIC, Big Company, Signing a contract bond of 2 years...

But well, he's a 'brother' of mine. So I trusted him although I knew this isn't really v.good. But months passed... As the first month passed... the bill came to my house... My mom saw it & questioned... Well, I told her the truth... Of coz, she wasn't very happy... But I told her that my 'brother' would pay for the bill. [Still trusting him] The second month passed... No payments were made... and there was an overdue charge... The third month came too... and again no payment was made... What surprised me more was that... Despite it was Starhub's well-known 'Free-incoming' plan which costs only abt $30+ monthly, he managed to accumulate his toll charges to a total of around $100 per month...

The line was suspended... All charges came up to abt $400+... and Starhub called up to warn that if no payment is to be made soon... It'll come up to $500+ [Overdue charges] and shortly after, the lawyer letter would come...

I warned my brother, and he told me he would settle it... [Yes, yes]
But no action was taken...

My mom became v.hot... She was angry with me & was angry with my 'brother'...
We quarrelled one night... I told her to trust me... but she wouldn't... She said she couldn't trust my 'brother' anymore... If he doesn't do anything, she will take action against him...

Well, that friend has taken me for granted...

Proverbs 23:4-5
"Do not wear yourself out to get rich; have the wisdom to show restraint. Cast but a glance at riches, and they are gone, for they will surely sprout wings and fly off to the sky like an eagle."

Proverbs 13:7
"One man pretends to be rich, yet has nothing; another pretends to be poor, yet has great wealth."

Jeyaraj taught me accountability for this lesson...
Account to yourself, account to ya family, account to Him (Our Abba Father)

'If u only do God's work but do not work on ya secular behaviour and character...
U are no difference as Church-goer, right?
Are church ants christians because they live in the Church?
Are church lizards christians because they live in the Church?
- Quality versus Quantity - '

One week already in CMRC...

CMRC = Civil Military Relations Centre...
I've been @ Maju camp for one week already...
Doing webpage editing, dreamweaver & office work...

And there seems to be a bit of office politics everywhere... even inside my office...

"Hey, there's...
This guy who will backstab that guy...
That guy always 'missing-in-action'...
This that guy always slack at work..."

Sigh... when will this world be peaceful? Haha...

Really miss my campmates back in 3SIR...
Heard that they have 'Alert Red' this weekend...
Poor thing...

Take gd care brothers!!!

Miss ya guys man!

What's the big deal?

Lately, Singapore had been kinda hoohaa abt the "IOC event"...
Big deal! As in Singapore's ever gonna host Olympics... Over my dead body...

If Singapore has the chance to, things would be different... and I would strongly support...

But this time, it's just some Olympic committee using our facilities to decide some lucky country's fate in 7 years time... and I wouldn't consider it 'lucky' afterall...

Those stupid terriosts (brainless, childish and ungodly as they can be) killed 37 fellas in the London Bombing yesterday...

What's so great abt getting the Olymipcs then?
All this for the sake of 'big money'?

Sigh...

Belated Birthday Surprise (Thanks DI!!!)

After work (docked work @ 1730), I went for prayer-meet @ the AMK ministry house...
They were acting v.weirdly when I arrived. Saw Donnie in the kitchen...
I tot he was so hungry that he was cooking something...
Was so keen to try Donnie's cooking...But when I approach him to ask what he was doing, he snugged up behind the fridge door, told me that I shldn't be in the kitchen and was trying to hide something from me...
Haha... Saw a candle in his hand sticking out from the edge of the fridge door.
The others were in the room doing something that was not to be known... Hmmm...

Prayer-meet was kinda weird... We started off with some kind of 'grammy award presentation'... Haha... It was some X-Men/X-Women award... and the awards were plates with the winners' names... Jeyeraj, Richard, JingMin, James, Stephen & etc...(Sorry, 4got the names...) Awards like 'Most faithful shepherd", "Most Creative Care... Leader", "Most Encouraging...." & dunno something "Salt and Light"... etc

After that, we did our worshipping...
Asking for His blessing, asking him to strengthen us... our DI group
As we are the most fastest-growing unit in the tertiary groups...

The whole prayer meet took quite some time, it was already 2030 already...
Was kinda hungry & tired liao... so I couldn't focus...
It would also take me 40 minutes to reach home by train...
And I would have some chores to settle at home...
And I gotta wake up by 0545am tmr morning...
So I went to approach MeiHwa to excuse me because I need to go liao...

But then, everybody started to be 'funny'. Speaking tongues to each other and distracting me from talking to MeiHwa... So... The room was in a mess.. !@#$%^&*

Before I knew it, Donnie came from behind me and presented a small birthday cake...
Chocolatey heart-shaped one... >_< And everybody started clapping and singing the birthday song... I was so embarrased, so paiseh, so touched and so speechless...

I was told to make 3 wishes...
Which I shared with the family of DI...
1. (Coming soon) Jeremiah is training me to be a shepherd... Hope that God bless me the wisdom to absorb it asap so that I can be a shepherd in 2weeks time... (Can't take my word back now, hehe)
2. The target for DI4 is 8 pple... May we acchieve that number for this month (& May God bless DI4 to be united together as we work together for God's goals, let the evil one tempt us no more...) As Jasmine told us, "As DI4[NSmen] is a very unique group, with very little time to meet, very little time to care & contact each other, we must work more on our faith and character... 'Quality than quantity'...
3. May DI continue to be the best, fastest growing unit in Hope's tertiary unit forever... May God bless his workers...

Xiuzhen presented to me a bouquet of plastic flowers... and ask me to accept it as a birthday gift... LoL... Then the guys affirmed me... Jeyeraj, Richard, Meihwa, Donnie, James... V.touched... And err, they very good storytellers siah... I where got so good... Say until like I some TV-Media product like that... And after, all of them gave me birthday cards... Felt like some movie stars... Haha... In the end, Donnie gave me the whole cake... and expected me to bring home... Ahhh...

"Cannot la... The SMRT will fine me..."

Really wish the guys could share the cake with me... Would feel v.happy...
"So... who says God never bless me any cake this year? Hahah"

Lastly, I thanked everyone and made my 'closing speech'... LOL
"Guys, thank you all so much for today's arrangements... and I really appreicate everything. Also, I wanna encourage all you guys out there, shepherds or non-shepherds, CL or non-CL... Continue growing/working for God... Push on... Never lose ya faith... Never give yourself a reason to doubt God... We all have problems in our life, but never give up faith... Just like last Saturday's service, 'these are all testings from God', Paster Alan said... I myself am facing some financial prob. though I dun show it... but I have faith in Him that He will never ditch me... God will never neglect me nor shortchange me... Place all ya problems in His hands, seek Him for encouragement/wisdom... together we will serve God to the fullest!!! Amen?"

The response was unanimous...

Sadly, the celebration came to an end as they had to start their DMM meeting...
But ultimately... a strong presense of unity of God's people was among us...

God Bless DI!

First day @ work...

Today's my last time visiting Selarang Camp & first day @ Maju Camp...
I reported to 3SIR's orderly room this morning, den there was another guy posting out too... So had to wait for him... And only left at 9 plus....

Thenafter, someone drove us there using the MIB car. First to "that" guy's camp @ yishun... It's that air base camp right outside chompang... So lucky... But he said he rather change with me... LOL

He didn't took long, and next stop was Pasir Lebar Camp (Far end of Boon Lay, near Tuas)
Reached TRADOC at abt 1000hr... Then the Mdm there (Ms Mages) told me that my posting was ASA (Admin Supervisor Assistant) @ CMRC (Civil Military Relations Centre @ Maju Camp)... Somewhere next to SIM & Ngee Ann Poly...

I could have left immediately for Maju Camp but Mdm said that there wasn't any transport at that time being... So I had to wait till afternoon. Sigh...

Reached Maju Camp at around 2-3plus... The place seems small... But quite well renovated... Very comfy office. And the people there were also v.nice. Found out that I wasn't the only newbie there... There were 2 more newcomers who arrived slightly earlier b4 me... And surprisingly, I met my ex-Secondary Sch classmate. Terence... haha... But he'll be ORD-ing soon... Sigh...

Calm birthday?!?

Dunno wad to say...
Yesterday was my birthday...
But I think God just doesn't want to bless me any cake to eat this year...

Din get to eat any cake... (Neither did i ate any of my frens eg.James,Joseph... Can refer to archive)
Din get any present...
Din get any celebrations...

Sigh...

But least, Chuanxi gave me face by attending my service...
Thanks Chuanxi...

A day of emotions, A day of memories...

[131204 - 010705]


Today is a very special day, and I have lots to share with you guys.

I went through a lot of things these days, and I learned a lot from Sergeant Malcolm which enlightened me a lot...

The army seems to us like it is a very tough occupation, but seriously, it is something that all men should go through. Haha... (Surprised?) While serving our national service, we do go through a lot of emotions every day. Unhappiness, jealousy, satisfaction, envy, boredom and fear... Who goes through all these in their lives everyday? Rarely... and it is all these that the boys will mature into men someday...

NS is all but just a training of the mind & the body... If u really can’t train ya body anymore, train ya mind. Be “strong”...

Had watched “Band of brothers” with Mark, Jesper, Zhen Nan, Sgt Malcolm & Sgt Tiong @ TP while doing our guard duty yesterday. Guarding the exhibit items for SAF day... It really touched me how a group of male strangers who didn’t knew each other at all, fought & sacrificed for the defense of the country together, in the WWII... Many died at the age of 20s, and for those who are still living (in their 80s)... holds tight to the unforgettable memories back 60 years ago...

I ‘finally’ left the scout platoon of 3SIR today, PC See Mite informed me only at 1600hr that I’m posted to TRADOC @ Pasir Lebar camp as a clerk (8-5, of coz), from 4th July onwards. The feeling that I had, always longing to leave Selarang camp suddenly vanished... Instead, wad got over me was a feeling... (Or should I say) “Sense of belonging”...

7 months of friendship with all my scout mates...
Boeing, Desmond, Mark, Zhexi, Bernard, Kenny, Gary, Kiwi, Guosheng, SenSian, Lawrence, Aik Soon, Weiting, Jesper, Jianjie & etc...
From Selarang -> SDC -> ISPC (PLC) -> Brunei (Lakuin) -> CBS, those were the great chains of memories... even though I didn’t participate most of the activities with them =P. But we went thru some equivalent shit together still... ^_^
Playing UNO & RISK in the bunk, “smoking out” together from the superiors, watching movies together...

Suddenly, *poof*... my life has moved on without them in the picture... feels a bit weird... “Guess this is life”... I am really gonna miss these guys so much... “Brothers, as the days move on, I wanna encourage you guys to be strong... and not like me... But like the tagline in “Band of Brothers”... [We stand alone together]... Do not regret the memories you create... “

Thanks for all and everything we had during these 7 months...

- Thanks -