I lived among the zillions of lives that God has created. And this is my chronicles...
But is this 'fantasy or fact' that you witness?
[Please do not copy, modify or publicize any of my artwork without my permission. Copyright © 2006 Tobey

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Tuesday, June 27, 2006

Giving up...

My life has become a life of boredom...

Due to my financial difficulty...
I've given up my dreams learning music...
[Both @ Hark and @ LWS]

There's no fun in my life anymore...
Just feel that adulthood is so dead to me...

Mon - Fri: NS (8-5)
Sun: Service

Go work, come home...
No fun @ all and I dread growing up...
No fun pals who can click with me...

Somehow... a verse rings in my mind
"But seek first His kingdom and righteousness and all these things will be given to you as well" - Matthew 6:33

Sunday, June 25, 2006

Went to sentosa...

Supposingly today was ECG...
going to sentosa...
but some pple were so easily dampen by the wet weather...
so... in the end, only the 3 enthusiast lunatics headed to Sentosa to have fun in the evening...

Who says u can't have fun in the evening at sentosa?

Who says some little drizzle will dampen activities outdoor?

By God's grace, I saw lots of God's beautiful masterpieces of nature and awed @ it...

Here's the videos taken with my lousy camera phone... Enjoy...



Great fun @ the luge... and at the musical fountain...

*Lost my adidas sunglasses... sigh

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

If We Hold On Together

We sang this song to Lean Choo & Michael during the camp to affirm them.
It's been ringing in my mind since we've came back...
Remembering how we cried together, and how our voices blended as one...

This is dedicated to all...

Tried to embed the karaoke music in... but it's kinda big and would hang the internet browser. So if u wanna hear the music, click here
Words and Music: James Horner and Will Jennings
From the animated film, "The Land Before Time"
Don't lose your way with each passing day
You've come so far, don't throw it away
Live believing, dreams are for weaving
Wonders are waiting to start
Live your story, Faith hope and glory
Hold to the truth in your heart

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by, for you and I

Souls in the wind must learn how to bend
Seek out a star, hold on till the end
Valley, mountain, there is a fountain
Washes our tears all away
Worlds are swaying, someone is praying
Please let them come home to stay

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by, for you and I

When we are out there in the dark
We'll dream about the sun
In the dark, we'll feel the light
Warm our hearts … Everyone

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
As high as souls can fly
The clouds roll by, for you and I

Monday, June 19, 2006

Growth... Commitment... Problems...

Part & parcel of growing up...
I witnessed breakthroughs...
I experienced stress at commitments...
I face problems...

Current Commitment
Media Ministry.WAM - HopeVision [Video Editor]
MultiMedia in-charge for sub-district level
E-Sermon in-charge [With Giselle]
Word For Life class rep
Working with Charlie on this week's ECG...

Current problems
Handling relationships...
Learned that love can be strict, frank and truth...
It's hard for me leh...
Rebuking pple...
I'm always the Mr. Nice Guy...

* I love my Shepherd *
He seems to be under a lot of stress, and seems to be very aggressive lately... Hope God can destress him alittle... and allow him peace in the spirit...

[SmS] From Charlie yesterday...

"Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let up throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the face marked out for us. Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfector of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning the shame, and sat down at the right hand side of the throne of God." - Hebrew 12:1-2

Friday, June 16, 2006

Disappointment...

Is the following equation correct?

disappointment = expectations(not met)?

A lot of my friends are facing this problem lately...
"Disappointment..."
From friends, relatives... and maybe God...

How do u handle ya disappointment?
Do u trust in the Lord on ya disappointments?
[Proverbs 3:5-6 "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways, acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight."]

[To be Continued...]

* Counting down to ORD: 55 working days left liao! WooHoo!!! *

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

Back from Gump... I mean...Camp...

Back from Melacca, back from camp...

Asking me how was camp?
Well......
for those who didn't go, or couldn't go...
You guys sure missed out loads of fun & blessings...


On day 1, we left Newton @ 0800hrs... Headed towards the 2nd link...
Travelled along the highway... Sleepy... zZzZz...
Reached Mahkota Shopping Center @ Melacca around 1 plus...
Went 'Shopping' and had lunch there...
Reach Riveria Bay Resort @ around 2 plus...
Got room keys... [416]... Jerry was supposed to join me...
But too bad, he had some commitments back at Sg.
Happily, i tot i had the whole room to myself... hehe...
But Charlie swopped my room with Kehan & Gerald...
And so... I joined Charlie and Tianhan in their 2 rooms suite...Hehe...
Had welcome ceremony in the evening... and a rehearsal for the 'Kawan Showcase'

Following that were workshops and teachings. The workshop was so cool. Especially the one by Yien Shen. "Joy-filled Life". It was like a drama workshop. So fun. Seeing life at the many different angles. For the Kawan Showcase, things cropped up a little... The multimedia part... Props and stuff... but we managed to pull thru... thank God..
Now the whole church recognises me as Baby Forrest Gump. Ahhhhh... Even Pastor Jeff was like, "Hey, Forrest... what's ya name ahh?"

The other teams were also very good. Loved the 3 little pigs one... [Chang Shung(Clarence Ng's Kawan) was so cute as the 1st pig.]
And the musical teams... were so touching. I bet Eugene put a lot of work into it.

My beloved family

The camp was a little tight scheduled... Not enuff sleep everyday.
Yet so many activities...
Can faintz sia...
But God was great all the time. Made lots of frens...
Strengthened our bond among the CG.
Honest, after the camp...
I love my CG now so much.
They are like a family to me....


Overall, it was fun and blessed.
But the service there and hygience sucks big time.
The lights in our room blew out in a bunch leaving the room semi-lit.
Asked for house-keeping & they took like half to more than a day to come.
Tianhan mentioned that he smelled stale frozen chicken used in the chicken curry from the lunch buffet... Arrgghhh...
The water running from the tap faucet was also either brown or green.
(Mind u, we wasn't observant on the first day... and the few of us had this natural brew with our complimentary coffee sachlets. Urrghh... FYI, Kehan was enjoying the coffee lor... LMAO =X)


Got to know some new Kawans...
Eugene Wong (NG12C) - Shared my bed with him [Part-Timer]
Grace Lim (NG9B3) - My lovely Kawan. Very prettily dressed in pink.
Priscillia (NG9B2) - I'm her Kawan. So sweet of her. She got me a nike bag.
Delwin (NG1C3) - My 'speed friend'
Sui Yao (NG1C3) - My 'speed friend'
Jack (NG5A3) - My 'speed friend'
Merissa (NG5B1) - My 'speed friend'
Dorcas (AG3) - My 'speed friend'
& of course, our Forrest Gump folks from NG9A...
Patrick did a great job...


Pictures © copyrighted from Amber & Tianhan. 2006

*Oh, some testimonials to share...
On the first day of the welcome ceremony, we were told to scribble down our thoughts on the mahjong 'wall'papers in the ballroom. And I wrote with my crayon...

† "May God bless all a fruitful camp, with gifts, health, wisdom and loads of blessings when we return"

^_^ He answered my prayer!!! And he showed his covenant!!! Right outside the hotel lobby, facing the shore/horizon on the second evening. (We were having lunch) There's big rainbow that stretches from the clouds to the horizon. So thick and visible. And that was the greatest gift God gave me in the camp. His covenant. I love you, Daddy!

Monday, June 05, 2006

Dedicated to my 'Kawan'...

My 'Kawan' in the upcoming church camp is "Grace Lim" from unit group NG09B3



So this post is dedicated to her...

While we are away 4 the camp...
May God bless her loved ones who's back in Sg...
With safety and good health...
Pray that God would bless her journey's blessing to Malacca...
A fruitful trip too... as God watches over her and
blesses/showers her with blessings, love and fun.

In Jesus name,
Amen!

Sunday, June 04, 2006

Forrest Gump

Thursday, June 01, 2006

L.O.V.E

I'd just finished watching the whole series of Dream Chasers 【梦·拼图】.
One of my favourite idol dramas... Perhaps it's because there's JY and Kelly in there. Great job JY!!! Kudos to Weilian too...

AJ & Lynn

Boy, the scriptwriter sure made this guy here teared... Let's just say I'm just a (Sensitive.New.Age.Guy) Enuff explanation for that?

Recently, I have been facing some relationship problems...
History haunts back... Expectations not met...
Else it would be me giving and not receiving...
When is enough really enough?

What is LOVE? This world is made up of the matter 'LoVe'...
Without it, this world would have never run properly...
worst, would have never been created...

Unconditional Love? conditonal love? demanding love?

I am getting so sick of love.

I once came upon this quote
"I love hate. I hate love"

Due to disappointment and stress,
I have learnt that I dun need love...

[Mind you, i'm not referring to just BGR love.]

爱,无力 - 潘嘉丽
最后我们分开了
虽然还是朋友
但做回朋友的情人
想摆脱关系不太容易
寂寞变成了习惯
习惯靠着孤单
想念该遗忘
不该在身旁
陪着我的每个夜晚

我 只 想 对着天空轻轻的呼吸
寻找我最爱的人到底在哪里
在慌乱中
翻箱倒柜寻找记忆
有一种爱的曾经住在我心里
陪伴我熬过多少个无声哭泣
不懂爱情
我的心如此无力

其实我很清醒
其实我很冷静
看着眼泪滴过来手心

最后我们分开了
虽然还是朋友